Oddly enough, rekindle the spirit is Starbucks' slogan for the holiday season. But seriously, I'm not here to sell more Starbucks, cause I drink more than enough everyday myself that I think I'm getting quite sick of it.
Yesterday I woke up with a facebook message, and my eye's were glowing. A friend would loves snails, she wrote an essay on snails and slugs. All the way from Czech, she asked me out of everyone to proofread her essay for her. "hmmmm..." it was a short notice, and had to be done quickly before evening. Contemplating whether to do it or not (she gave me the option not to), I still did so.
Upon opening up the document, noticing that it was only slightly more than a page single spaced, I took my time to read it through. Philosophically as usual, she wrote about snails, slugs, and the huts they carry. The story reminded me of her journey of faith, even so mine. How am I once like the little snail that was willing to give up the hut, not care of how others see me, and become a free slug? Yet, old habits, insecurity, and fear had always again and again been my excuses to retrieve back to my little hut that's seemingly reflecting security, protection, and safety. Finding a hut is not hard. We always idolize things in our lives to trick ourselves that "this is enough and will satisfy me." However, just as C.S. Lewis puts it in Mere Christianity "Most people, if they had really learned to
look into their own hearts, would know that they do want, and want
acutely, something that cannot be had in this world."
The words and the message in the essay was not directed to me, though I somehow "by coincidence" was able to read it. It was refreshing, and definitely rekindled something within me that have been dull and stagnant for a while. And for all this, even though seemingly small, I praise God for it!
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Have been focusing on praying, asking for courage and faith. To be honest, within my own life, I've been focusing on praying for the future. The coming year is going to be a test of faith, and I really am praying that through the opportunities that God has already given me, I'll be able to have the courage to step out and take a leap of faith. People ask me the question - where will you be if you take that? The answer is - I don't know. I truly will be sent to somewhere possibly new and unknown.
It's been hard going through prayers as there are many things to pray about these days. Other than praying for people regularly and this...other aspects of life have been put aside. Demanding enough, I really wish that I can make a decision after Urbana. Maybe God will speak through that opportunity He gave me at Urbana, not only to experiencing Him, but also another realm of things.
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