Cry In My Heart

"There is a Cry in my heart..." It hit home when I was listening to this song while walking to meet a friend this morning.

I'm curious, critical, and skeptical. I always wonder about different things...and would want to find out alternatives if a certain answer does not fulfill my curiosity or that it's not satisfying. Being frustrated by the job market, with conflicts/arguments, with myself and people...I've been wondering what it'll be like if I weren't a Christian. As lame as it sounds, I started imagining different things that might happen at least in the last 4 years of university if I wasn't following Christ.

Ironically...the more I looked into the past 4 years, I realized one thing - God's fingerprints are too evident in my life, there's no point in denying it at all. If I were to choose to deny the slightest bit of God's unconditional love, I might as well take out large chunks of my life. Sometimes the many coincidences that we think we know of...we just don't know it all. Connecting all the dots...seeing the bigger picture...Wow! How am I not to be humbled? He still used me at the times when I felt the most helpless...

God's love for us is so great! I've been overwhelmed these 2 days by how He picks me up when I feel in despair. If people say that I'm encouraging...Haha! I'm really nothing in comparison to God. He is the true one who encourages and loves unconditionally!

Cry in My Heart @ Starfield

There's a cry in my heart
For Your glory to fall
For Your presence to fill up my senses
There's a yearning again
A thirst for discipline
A hunger for things that are deeper

Could You take me beyond?
Could You carry me through?
If I open my heart?
Could I go there with You?
(For I've been here before
But I know there's still more
Oh, Lord, I need to know You)

For what do I have
If I don't have You, Jesus?
What in this life
Could mean any more?
You are my rock
You are my glory
You are the lifter
Of my head
Lifter of this head