2 Hours of Sleep...

God spoke to me in a different way through the experience of 2 hours of sleep. I'm still having mixed feelings, but I guess it's still a good thing.

The story behind me only sleeping two hours was because I had to work on my final semester project. The art of procrastination sometimes plays well. I didn't deliberately procrastinate, I had midterms and assignments, leaving me 2 days to work on a huge project (although I had all the designs and stuff). I didn't have much time, considering I need to make a magazine and a model. The write up of the 12 pages essay took me quite some while...

I thought this would be a fun project, since the professor wanted our creativity, I boldly proposed to her my idea of treating this as a design project. She said sure. I was so excited! Like very excited. Ideas kept popping up in my mind, thoughts were just spewing in my brain back and forth. When it came to designing my own personal leadership paradigm, wow! Ideas came naturally, one after another. The original inspiration of a classic perfume bottle didn't work too well, so I modified it, and there it goes, my perfume bottle inspired leadership paradigm model.

Really enjoyed the process of cutting out paper and boards, drawing lines and all that...totally was in a different world. Didn't even bothered to do other stuff - super concentrated. The next day I started on writing the 12 page essay, surprisingly, I finished in a little more than 6 hours. Maybe I knew I had a magazine to work on during the night, I was still a little awake when I was heading home with AF from Robarts past 12.

Sitting there at home working on the layout...I did not stop. Finished dinner at 1ish and started on the project. Charging through, I had no pause in between. I worked until 8am when my weary body was exhausted and needed a nap (I was super sick too). Normally my naps take forever, but this time I woke up in 2 hours and continued with the final editing and adding additional sections to the magazine.

Rushed to FedEx to get it printed, rushed home to start on my presentation slides...didn't have time to write a script and I then ran to class. Surprisingly, the presentation was like a bliss (though I probably would have done better if I prepped for it). I enjoyed sharing my design in class and seeing people be inspired by my leadership model. Different from many, but that's essentially how I viewed leadership.

I felt a little down afterwards when I was walking home with ML. Not just because my last presentation and essay in undergrad ended, but for the fact that I realized what I love to do. I'm sure you all have a time when you can just work and work and work because you love what you are doing. Same for me. Knowing that my body will crash because I didn't sleep the night before, I still did it. It felt amazing.

It feels a little late to go peruse what I love now...but I do pray to have this passion in me while serving God :)