In My Little World, God Showed Me...

Had a wonderful afternoon chatting with MN :D Hehe, thank you for listening to me! :)

Don't even know how long we've actually spent talking to each other, it's wonderful because at times where I thought I could share to no one, you took the time out to hear me out. Our chat reminded me of a lot of things, a lot of values I've held on in the beginning of this year. This school year serving the fellowship had got me caught in many other things, it's like a car without a windshield wiper on a stormy day. I lost my focus, and even for myself, I forgot about the things I've said.

I've always hoped to be vulnerable to people, to share with them. I didn't want sharing becoming another pity party, but a time where we can all just be vulnerable and comfortable with one another to share about our struggles. It may be true that no one can actually help, but we have one another to pray or to pray with each other - I forgot all this...

This past month, I literally pushed away everyone who would potentially care (haha...there was a point where I felt no one cares about me at all). I didn't want people to worry, so I would put on a smile every time I'm out and think that "I can fool them all." For the ones that were not close with me, yes, a confirmation of "I'm okay" perfectly did it's job right. For those who knows me, I'm pretty sure I worried them a lot more. Hereby I apologize to you all :)

I was stuck in my own little world, but God showed me the same exactly vision He placed in my heart a year ago through this wonderful sister's words. Thank you Lord! It was amazing to be reminded in this very special way :)