Went to TCBC today. Felt like it is a good time to come back, after these past few months, I've experienced a lot. Deep down inside, there's so many things that are going on.
It felt a little awkward coming back when people said, "Oh! You are here, how come?" or something like, "Why are you here?" Why can't I? :P (but let's not go there...) It felt a little weird in general, can't really describe the vibe, but there was a vibe of some sort...
I got to catch up with auntie Alicia over lunch, was really good :) I got to ask her things and just to share about my life in these past few months. In the very beginning, I didn't know why she sent me an email asking me why I was leaving, but now, I really appreciate it. She checked up on me, personally asking me before she made any assumptions whatsoever. Just like for many people, I'd rather people ask me why I'm doing what I'm doing in person than to "induce" reasons. She said to me "people who care will know, and they will ask."
Haven't felt this way in a long time...she supported me in whatever my decision was. She encouraged me to continue with the things I'm working on, in the things that I am convicted that is glorifying God. It felt like talking to a friend, that's been there, done it...etc. In a way, I could share with her my struggles, and things that I'm excited, and she'll be excited for/with me :) It was refreshing talking to her about many things. Maybe I needed that affirmation, that support from someone that cares. Sharing about missions, wow...almost anything that we could cover in an hour.
Before she had to pick up her children, we prayed. We spent a moment in prayer. *tears*
I wished I had a peer to share and to pray like that (a prayer that I'm still praying everyday).
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